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Monday, September 14, 2009

JC and Donna Lee...I Cannot Post Beyond This Page...Not Ever...

I can't post on this place anymore...it would be a sin for me...I will leave this as it is to honor my sweet Donna Lee...

My sweet little girl...my life...my Donna Lee...Today you have been in Heaven for two years...it seems like a thousand years...I miss you every day and love you forever...you are the best part of my life,-even now you are gone...I long for the day we will be back together in body as we are now in spirit...I love you, dear...and miss you so much...Your Teddy Bear always...JC...Jim...James...

My sweet Donna Lee, you are 74 years old today, November 13...I will love you forever...Your Teddy bear,-JC...

I'll go on now with my life but this blog will stay like it is...my sweet wife went to Heaven on September the fourteenth, of 2009, at 04:30 in the afternoon...now,on September the thirtieth of 2010, I dedicate this blog to her sweet memory. I love you, my wife, and I keep your memory in my heart forever...Now I leave you here...where we last met...I'm yours always...your teddy bear...James...

It has been a year now since you went away...it seems like an eternity...I thought to write in this blog again and go on with things...but now that I am here, that would be so hard to do...it would be like saying it is finally over...you are gone forever and will never return to me...I just can't do it...I'll just say,-I love you so much and miss you terribly, every day,-every second of my life...nothing can ever be the same...nothing will ever be 'all right'...

I want to tell you,-I have a friend now,-you know her..Catarina Fonseca, Tina of Tinorbison...she has been so loving and caring...she mentions you often,-to say how wonderful you are...how perfect you and I are together...she has given me a reason for some kind of existence,-a reason to be alive...

Even so, to be with you again is my dream...I only await the day when I can see you...touch your sweet face again...I'll wait to write more in this blog...Maybe God will send me a sign when it is time...but not now...not today...
My sweet wife, I love you always and forever...I am your teddy bear...your JC...

"Happy Birthday, my sweet rose! Today you are as old as me. Today I have loved you for seventy three years and will always love you! Forever, your teddybear...
" November 13...

Donna Lee went to Heaven at 4:30 pm today. I cannot imagine what it will be like without her here with me. I know I'll see her again but it's sure going to be lonesome waiting for that time to come.

Thank all of you friends for your love and support. Donna Lee didn't know most of you but, since I love you, I know she loved you, too. That's the way we were; and still are and will always be.

"Hi, Sweetie! I can see you looking down at me. I just want to tell you one more time how much I love you.I love you more than everything else in the world all put together. And I know you love me. We'll always be together, my Sweetie, my Honey; My Donna Lee."

I feel like I should add this poem. I didn't know when I wrote it it would be for my honey. It is very sad.

It's Really Hard To Say a Last Goodbye...

It's really hard to say a last goodbye,-
To know you'll never see someone again,-
To see the look of loss and know that this
Will be the last time that you'll see your friend.
You gently come to her and take her hand,-
You don't know what it is you're gonna say,-
You'd rather not say anything at all;
You never thought you two would part this way.

You feel a little lump start in your throat
And get a little quiver in your chin.
It's hard for you to look right in her eyes
And know you'll never look in them again.
Her soft brown eyes are asking you to speak
But that is not an easy thing to do.
What can you say that will make any sense
When you now know your friend is leaving you.

You've been together all these happy years
And never thought this love could ever end;
You never thought the Angels would appear
And with your love to Heaven would ascend.
But now her loving eyes begin to close;
You whisper that you love her and you cry.
You kiss her gently, then she goes away;
It's really hard to say a last goodbye.

This is a Roy Orbison song my sweetie and I just found on tinorbisons web site (from Portugal) and began listening to. I just have to post it. It is so profound.


Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Donna Update 9/9...Update 9/10...Update 9/11...9/12...9/13...

Another pretty good day. I learned a lot today, about caring for someone. Donna was looking sort of tired when I got there and I asked the nurse how long it had been since Donnas mouth was cleaned. She said about two hours and handed me a bottle of cleanser, a tube of lotion and some swabs and said told me I could do it.
I had done it a couple of times before but it was still scary for me; I was afraid of hurting her. But it turned out to be pretty easy. I just had to be careful to not scrub too hard.
Then I exercised her arms and feet and rubbed lotion on them and played some music for her. I recorded about an hour of Jazz (Take the A Train, etc) on a cd last night because Donna loves Jazz. She seemed to like it. She wasn't very responsive today but her numbers were all good.
Then came the really scary part. The nurse told me that she had to sit Donna up in a big padded chair. I left and she told me I should help because I might have to be doing things like this when Donna comes home. After a few minutes, I went back and helped the nurse and another big male nurse.
They were supposed to leave her in that sitting position for as long as she could stand it,maybe a half an hour. As it turned out, she sat there for over an hour and seemed to feel better after we put her back in the bed.
She didn't get dialysis today but will tomorrow. I'm going to start helping turn her and all the rest. I was always afraid I would hurt her but I know, as long as I am careful, it'll be all right.
I need to find a good hospital type bed for her for when she comes home. It sure is long here at night.
Thank all of you folks for your comments of encouragement and your prayers. We love you for them.
Always your friends, Jim and Donna Lee...

Thanks are in order to all of you who prayed for a good result from the MRI brain scan! I got the final results today and there is NO EVIDENCE OF A STROKE! 'Yay!'
Doctor Brussett came in and I told him about the results (I think he already knew) and he said, "See, like I told you,-just stick to your guns."
What a relief this is. Now we just keep on doing what we are doing and, one of these days, I'll be taking my Honey home!

She is off of all her meds except for an antibiotic for her bed rash and a saline drip. She may be transferred to a re-hab hospital in a week or so. That is a very good sign.

She was getting ready to have a dialysis when I left. Thank all of you for your love and support. We love you and I know God loves you.
Your friends, Jim and Donna Lee.


<Donna was some relaxed this morning. Her numbers were good and she didn't need dialysis yesterday. I played a new CD for her and I think she enjoyed it.

I sat in on the 'rounds' and the doctor showed the MRI of Donnas' brain. It didn't show anything bad that anyone could tell. One fellow pointed at a small triangular area and said that could be a compromising spot but he would wait for the main examiner to say.
Doctor Bartolo showed the scan to me up close and said he didn't see anything wrong at all.
Dr Hari said he didn't see anything bad that would cause a stroke.
A technician came in later and did an EEG (electroencephalograph). We should get the results of everything tomorrow. I'll let you all know.
Keep praying for her. We love you. Jim and Donna Lee.

Donna looked about the same today but her numbers were a bit better. They were good enough so she didn't need a dialysis today. That's a good sign.
A neurologist examined her last night and said she may have had a stroke. The MRI will show it if that is what happened.

Doctor Hari came in and we talked. I suggested to him that Donna might have suffered a slipped disc in her neck vertebrae.
He said he was glad I kept trying to come up with something but he doubted that was what happened.
He thinks it is as the result of the extreme trauma and pain that the brain shuts down the body. There is a name for it but it was so long I don't remember it. He said he doubts the MRI will show a stroke. I sure hope he is right.
He said, if what he suggested is right, it will just take time for Donnas' brain to allow her body to start up again. He says to just keep doing what we're doing and be patient. I thanked him and shook his hand for that opinion.
I played music for her part of the day and shut it off when she drifted off to sleep.
It sure is quiet in this house. I never realized how many sounds my Honey made.
Thank all of you,-we love you. Jim and Donna Lee...

I guess it's time to start a new post.

Donna looked a little bit more relaxed today. I think she is getting more pain medication. The MRI still wasn't done due to accident victims coming in. Her MRI isn't something that is crucial. She was getting a dialysis when I left.
There is a new male nurse and I don't think he fully knows the routine with Donnas care. I had to remind him today to turn her and clean her mouth. I hope we don't have words but I can't keep from saying something when something needs to be done.
Her numbers are still good. I took a new cd and played it for her and I exercised her some.
She seems to get a little better each day but it is such a small bit, you'd have to be there every day to see the improvement.
Some guy asked me if I ever went home and I told him that I am at home,-anywhere my Honey is is home.
Please keep praying for her. I know she will make it but it is sure getting to be a long time for her. Thank you all so much for your support. We love you. Always your friends, Jim and Donna Lee...

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Donna Lee...Update 9/3...Update 9/4...Update 9/5...Update 9/7...Update 9/8...

Donna looked a little bit better today when I got there. She looked more relaxed (you have to see her every day to tell)than she did yesterday. I waited around for a while before I spoke to her; until she opened her eyes. She knew me right away. And the nurse, Roger, now says she knew him, too, and understood things. That's a very good sign,-him admitting that.
She has the brain scan MRI scheduled to be done this evening. The nurse had a chance to get her dialysis pretty early so he decided to do that first. I won't know anything on the MRI until tomorrow morning. Keep your fingers crossed, that there'l be nothing bad in the scan results.
Roger told me I could bring a cd player in to play her cds. I went right out and got one at Best Buy and a set of speakers. The player is fine but the speakers don't do much so I'll use Donnas speakers from her computer.
I played a couple of songs and she looked like she enjoyed them but then she gat a little sad so I turned it off. I'll try tomorrow again and see if she will enjoy them, her favorite songs, without getting sad. I hope so.
The Infectious Disease doctor came by and checked her and told her, "Donna, you're getting better all the time." That's a really good sign. He told me her signs are good and stable and her white count is at 13, which is good for her condition.I have decided to ask the doctors to not say negative things within Donnas hearing range anymore. I know she understands things and I don't want her to get discouraged.

I love all of you folks, anonymous included, for being so caring and encouraging. It really means a lot to us. Always your friends, Jim and Donna...

Donna Lees numbers are about the same today as they were yesterday. I know she is aware of things sometimes. When I got there, I walked over to the other side of the bed, the way she was facing. I leaned down and told her hello and put my hand on her forehead and her eyes immediately locked on me. Her chin came up a couple of times like she wanted to say something. I told her I loved her and asked her if she was all right, I asked if she was in pain and tears started; she was crying.
I told Roger, the male nurse about it and told him she was in pain and Roger called Doctor Sam and was allowed to give her a little bit of a pain medication and, after a few minutes, she felt better. The problem was, then she didn't feel up to talking anymore so I left her alone for a while.

Of course, the doctors and the nurse take all of this with a grain of salt. However, Roger did tell Doctor Brussett that Donnas eyes had 'tracked'.

Donna didn't get the MRI today because of people being off for the holiday and a couple of accident victims came in and kept the technicians busy. They'll do it tomorrow.

There is some good news. They thought she might be bleeding from an ulcer so a doctor inserted a 'gastroscopy', (?)-a tube with a camera, into her stomach to check it out. He just called me here at home ten minutes ago
to say her stomach is clear! 'Yay!'What a great thing for him to do, to call me tonight!

That's about it for today. Thank you all so much for your love and support; for your caring and prayers. Always your friends, Jim and Donna Lee...

Donna looks about the same today except her breathing is a bit faster and, at times her heartbeat was a bit erratic.
Dr Lupersio went ahead and ordered an mri of her brain. I am anxious to see what it shows.

I will make this short as there isn't much to tell. Thank all of you folks for your love and encouragement. It really means a lot. I think about it sometimes when I am sitting in Donnas room. We love you for your prayers and thoughts.
Your friends, Jim and Donna...

Donna looked about the same today. Her numbers are good and I know she looks at me once in a while; her right eye follows my head movement slightly and I get a blink sometimes and this is all a good sign. I try to get her to squeeze my hand but she hasn't yet.
Her brain scan from yesterday showed no signs of a stroke. Doctor Lupersio said that if she doesn't awaken in a week he might get an mri of her brain. He said we'd have to think of something else. I told him that if she doesn't awaken in a week, we'd give her another week and another and as many as it takes for her to get well. I hope he felt the ice in my voice at what I perceived he meant.
Doctor Brussett came in later. He went to JC and Donna Lee and said he liked Green Eyes and Eighteen Wheels. I think he understands Donna a bit better now. He sure encourages me.
They were starting a dialysis when I left to come back to Red Bluff.

Thank all of you for your good wishes and encouragement. We love you for it. Jim and Donna...

Once again, Donna was a bit better today. She looked the same but the infections doctor said her white blood cell count is down to 15. He said 10 or below is ideal and reminded me that, a short while ago, her count was up to thirty.
I exercised her arms and feet and some to her knees several times today and rubbed them all with lotion.
I was singing a song to her and I moved my head to the side just a little bit and her eyes followed my face. I told the nurse but he said he had never seen her move her eyes. It happened again later and she is blinking some, too. I keep telling her to squeeze my hand but she hasn't yet.
Dr Brussett came in and I told him about her white blood cell count being at 15 and that it had been up to 30. He said that, at one time, it was up to 50. He told me again that Donna is getting a little bit better all the time. I told him that Donnas eyes followed me when I was singing to her and I moved my face. He said she probably could hear me.
He said he had patients who were ten times sicker than Donna and got well. He said one lady, after nine months, came by his office with her husband and they were living their lives just as they had before she got sick. I thank God every time he comes around. He always puts everything in perspective.

Thank all of you. We love all of you for your love and encouragement and support. Your friends, Jim and Donna...

Donna was better today. When I got there, a new male nurse met me and began to tell me of Donna's condition. He made it sound very bleary so I told him not to speak of Donna in terms of not getting better.
In a while, Doctor Brussett came in and we spoke. He was very encouraging. He said Donna is slowly getting better and warned me that some people may ask me when I intended to 'throw in the towel' and I told him that I would never give up on Donna. He said that is the perfect attitude. He said she is slowly getting better, even with a slight backstep once in a while and to keep up the positive thoughts. He said that even if it took six months or more in ICU, there is a good chance of full recovery and to never think otherwise.

Then the doctor specializing in infections came in and told me that Donnas 'white count' is down and that is a very good sign. I thanked him and Doctor Brussett for being there for us and for being so hopeful about Donna's recovery.
The dialysis tech lady came in then and started Donna on dialysis. Her numbers (bp-heart rate-oxygen, etc) stayed good and that is a good sign.
Then I got a bad stomach ache and had to leave before the dialysis was finished. I sure hope my stomach gets better by in the morning and is just a little 'half a day' bug.

Thank all of you good friends and relatives for your prayers and encouragement. Thank you relatives who e-mail us and you friends who comment here. We love you all for it. Jim and Donna...

Donna is about the same today as she was yesterday. That, in itself, is good news. She had dialysis this afternoon but they weren't able to get much fluid from her system and her heart was a bit erratic. The nurse says she is no worse. Thank the Lord for that. Thank all of you friends for caring. We love you. Jim and Donna...

I decided to start a new month. You can still read the earlier updates.

Donna was better today. She seemed relaxed, at least more than some other times. When I got there, I was told she would get another cat scan in a while; an abdomen, a lung and a brain scan. We'll probably have the results tomorrow.

I was exercising her arms and she opened her eyes! 'Yay!' She couldn't see me because she was in a semi-sleep state, between sleep and awake. I called the male nurse, Roger, (a really good guy) over and he said that was a very good sign. A nurse trainee started cleaning her mouth and got the swab a bit too low and Donna had a 'gag reflex', which is, also, a very good sign. Then she bit down on the swab. I felt like kissing her;-so I did!

She still hasn't been fully awake yet but she's getting closer. She didn't require a dialysis today and that was a good sign.

Please keep praying for Donna. She still has a long way to go. We love you all for your love and support. Your friends, Jim and Donna...

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Donna Lee Update Saturday 8/29...Update 8/30...Update 8/31...

Donna Lee had a much better day today. I had a long talk with the main supervisor about yesterdays nurse and her attitude. He assured me he would talk to her and the rest of the staff. There was a male nurse today that handled both the nursing and the respiratory duties. His name is Roger and he is very knowledgeable and personable.
He called me at home early this morning and told me that the doctor would be installing Donnas feeding tube into her stomach from the side of her abdomen and he wanted to let me know that it would be a while before I could see her. I used that time here at home, washing and drying ( and ironing) a load of clothes.
Donna had a much better day today. She is still under sedation and doesn't know what is happening. She had dialysis again today and, as the result of losing a lot of fluid, her heart went into a rapid heartbeat known as 'tachycardia.' The doctor said the rapid heartbeat was the way the heart replaces fluids that the body needs which were lost to the dialysis. He said they will watch it closely and within a few hours, her heart rate should return to normal. If it doesn't as fast as they think it should, they can add fluids.
Thank you all so much for your encouragement and support. We love you. Jim and Donna...

Donna had a bad day today. She started out pretty good then things began to worsen. I was watching the screen and saw her blood pressure jump from 170 to 195 and told the nurse. She came over and turned the sound off and said Donna would be all right; those things happen. I assured her that those things don't just 'happen' on their own, without a reason. She didn't agree so I called the on-call doctor and he talked to her. She inserted some meds into donnas tube and we waited for the next BP check; it came in at 177/84, not too good but better. Then I saw Donnas face begin to turn red and she started to perspire and her breathing began to be labored. The nurse and the respritory tech weren't interested. Then her palms turned bright red. I called the nurses attention to it and she wasn't worried; it seemed no one wanted to worry. So I had the head nurse call Dr Hari and he came in and he looked worried. I reminded him that this is just what happened two weeks ago when Donna almost died. He assurred me he would keep a close watch on things.
That's about it for now. I'll check back with the hospital in a couple of hours, after the dialysis has run. Please keep praying for Donna. Jim

It's Saturday, August 29th and Donna Lee is about the same as she was yesterday. That's what the rounds doctor said. I exercised her some this morning and I think it relaxed her a bit. After I exercise her feet, I put them flat against a pillow or I put each foot into a foam rubber block to keep it flat. That will keep her from getting what is called 'drop-foot'.
She had dialysis this afternoon and the lady said she thinks Donnas color is better than it was day before yesterday.
Doctor Brusett said Donna may be in ICU for another month. He says she may be home in three or four months, after hospital and physical therapy.
I may buy an adjustable bed for when she gets home. They're pretty expensive but Costco has one on sale I can order and pay for with my credit card. And, if she doesn't need it within 90 days, I can return it. I have to decide before the 1st of September when the sale is off.
I really thank all of you, our friends and family, for your love and support. A dear friend of ours named Loretta went to a jam session today and filled everybody in on Donnas condition. She helps by keeping our jam session friends informed. It saves me having to make a lot of calls.
Please keep your love and prayers coming. We love you all. James and Donna.

Donna is still running a bit of a fever. The rounds doctor said it is caused by an infection of some sort. She gets an antibiotic for the fever but the antibiotics gives her diarrhea. What a quandary that is but the doctor says he can handle it. She had the trach tube put into her neck this afternoon and she seems to be breathing and resting a bit easier. Her fever is down to just under a 100 degrees. Doctor Brussett said she would probably be in icu for another month. She is pretty sick. Then he said she wouldn't remember much about this WHEN SHE GETS HOME. I almost kissed him for saying 'WHEN SHE GETS HOME'!
I didn't exercise her much today and none this evening after the trach tube was installed. I'll start again tomorrow.
That's about all for today. I really love all of you people for caring for my Honey and praying for her and being there for her. Your friends, Jim and Donna...

Donna seems to be just a bit better today. She still has a bit of a fever, about 37.9 Celsius which is 100 degrees Fahrenheit, not too bad. I started exercising her knees now, too, along with her arms, legs and feet. I don't know if it makes her feel any better now but it'll be good for her when she wakes up. The nurses here are really good people. I was told to press her feet against a pillow to flatten them out, so they won't stiffen at a down sloping angle and the nurse told me not to worry about the pillow. Then she went out and came back with two foam rubber deals that Donnas' feet fit into so they are kept in the right position. I just take them off her feet to exercise them then put them back on. Thank you all for your prayers, good wishes and hugs. We love you. Jim and Donna.

Donna had a bit of a bad night last night. Her white blood count was up because of an infection. They're not sure where the infection is. The kidney doctor put in a new tube and replaced all of Donnas old tubes, thinking that might help. I didn't exercise her today because she was tired. Her other signs are good; BP, ECG, EKG and the like. Her breathing was good with the respirator set at 40%. I came home a bit earlier than usual to tend to a few things here. Doctor Brussett said he will talk to me tomorrow or Friday about putting the trach tube to make it easier for her to breathe and maybe she will awaken then. Thank you all for your prayers and support. Jim and Donna.

Donna looks better than she did yesterday. The respirator is turned down to 40% which is a very good sign. (by the way, I think the trach tube will be for her breathing if and when it is installed)The respirator tech listened to her heart and lungs and said her lungs sounded better than they ever had; there was no rattle of any kind. The doctor who was head of the 'rounds' said she is definitely improving. Thank you all for your prayers and support. We love you all for it. Jim and Donna

I exercised Donna today and she was sent for another cat scan; I don't know what about. She is doing better.I sat in on the 'rounds' this morning and the head man showed me Donnas latest X-ray. He pointed out that her lungs look about 60% better than they did just yesterday. He says they look like they are starting to balloon out and that's a very good sign.

The nurse said they might take the tube out of her throat in a few days and install a trach tube to feed her. She may be able to awaken then. I sure hope so.
Thank you all for your prayers. We love you so much. James

I went to the hospital early this morning and Donna

I went to the hospital early this morning and Donna was doing much better. I exercised her arms and feet and that seemed to quiet her down some more. She had a dialysis during the day.

When I left, her breathing was very regular and smooth. I am feeling much better about her now.

I know all of you understand she can't have visitors except for immediate family. Just before she went in for the surgery, she told me to not let anyone see her until she got her own room. She said, without her teeth, she looked like a little old grannie. I reminded her that she is a little old granny and she said, maybe so but I just don't want to look like one.'chuckle'

I love all of you who have prayed for her. Having friends is a wonderful thing and Donna loves all of you for being here!


It's 4 pm right now. Donna had her cat scan. I don't know what the result was but it must have been all right or I'm sure they would have said something. She had e very rough day, being moved and all. And they took the catheter out of her heart and put in somewhere else. They said it would be more comfortable. Please keep your thoughts going to her. I'm sure she'll get well but a few good thoughts and a prayer or two won't hurt anyhow and we'll love you for them. Jim

I'm headed to the hospital right now. Donna was on the dialysis machine yesterday pm and was otherwise unchanged. They want to get a cat scan of her stomach today. Moving her will be very traumatic for her. Please send your good thoughts to her. She'll love you for it. Jim

Update: Donna is doing some better this morning. They took the dialysis machine off and her pulse, blood pressure and respiration are pretty good. Her white blood cell count is somewhat elevated but nothing that can't be handled. I heard the doctor tell the nurse that Donna is a bit better than yesterday. Thanks to everybody for your prayers! Jim...

To our friends:

Donna Lee found out she had lung cancer and, after many scans and tests, we decided she would have an operation to remove it. The Doctor said, given her history, the operation should be relatively safe. Her heart was good and that was the most important part.

The top lobe of her right lung had a large mass on it and the Doctor removed the entire lobe. The operation was a complete success and the next morning, she was awake and alert and almost ready to go home. (she said and I agreed)

Then (she was already in the Intensive Care Unit as a precaution) she was administered medication and she had a very bad reaction to it and almost died. Her heart had to be shocked to regain a good sinus rhythm and it worked; it was 87 bpm and steady and we felt better about things.

But her body reacted very badly to being moved or bothered in any way. She is on a respirator for her breathing and, at one time, the pressure was lowered to fifty percent (that's good) and she was hooked up to a dialysis machine to clean and warm her blood. After a while it was disconnected but, after night before lasts' bad episode, it was reattached as a precaution. This was after the doctor had to insert a catheter directly into her heart to help the monitoring.

Yesterday her color was better and yesterday an electrocardiograph showed that there was NO suspected hole in her heart and her heart was in overall pretty good condition. That is a very good sign.

Her doctor said he suspected she had a bad allergic reaction to one of her medications. He said that the longer she can be kept in her present guarded condition, the better chance she has for survival.

I know she will pull through but a small prayer or two from some of our friends surely wouldn't hurt anything.
I'll try to keep you posted.


Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Can You Believe This...

This is so cute I just had to post it! Enjoy!!



Wednesday, July 29, 2009


This is so clever, I think it is worth sharing. This cat looks just like Skeeter, a feline member of our family in the 90s who thought she was a little girl. (As did I) Enjoy.


Tuesday, June 30, 2009

I Cannot See My Old Friends...

Someone wanted me to write a poem that is taken from

some poem that is one I really like so I wrote this one. 

It was inspired by, "I Cannot Sing the Old Songs,"
by Charlotte Arlington Barnard.

I Cannot See My Old Friends...

I cannot see my old friends
I knew long years ago.
Or hear their gentle voices;
Those days are gone, I know.
The mem'ries that now fill my heart
Bring happiness and pain.
I cannot see my old friends
Or feel their touch again.

I cannot see my old friends;
The friends who were so true;
Who shared the times, both good and bad,
That all of us went through..
We played our games and lived our lives;
We never failed to care,-
And if I tripped and fell, I knew
My friends would be right there.

I cannot see my old friends;
The teardrops sometimes start
When I recall the memories
They left here in my heart.
Perhaps when earthly bonds have loosed
And set my spirit free;
I'll once more see my old friends
For all eternity.